Take a risk. Make a choice.

I have had a hard time sleeping lately. I still have yet to figure out the depth of my insomnia but I do know a lot of ideas and thoughts have been traveling through my brain. What is it that is ultimately going to give me what I want? I know the basics of what I need in my life, as do most of us, but my main concern is my longevity of the decisions I am making today, tomorrow or even next week.

They always say God laughs at plans but isn't it important to create some structure to your life? Create some basis of the path you hope to achieve? I'm seriously contemplating every move I make. Is it the right one? Should I step back a bit and go this other route? Is stepping back further going to take me away from that ultimate goal. WHAT IS THE ULTIMATE GOAL!? Doesn't it drive you crazy when you really think about it? 

People say I tend to over analyze everything but I don't see that as a bad thing. The only bad thing is not making a choice. That's when you have to tell yourself take the risk. After all isn't that what this world is all about? Taking a leap of faith into that gaping hole, not sure of where it leads? What's the worse that could happen? You realize when you come out of the hole it's not what you wanted? Well at least you tried. Remember what it felt like to learn a new skill, for instance, riding a bike. How many times did you fall and yet still get up and try again? I never took risks as a child- I was too afraid of getting hurt and you know what? I never learned to ride that bike. I dodged kids my own age when they wanted to go for bike rides. I was too busy or my excuse was that I didn't have a bike. I was embarrassed to admit that I couldn't do something so simple. But in the end it was because I was afraid of falling. 

Don't let that fear of falling or rather 'failing' hold you back. I eventually took that leap of faith, and borrowed a bike from a friend. It wasn't until my senior year in high school when we had to do a senior project that I learned to ride a bike. I still remember that moment in the parking lot when I finally got up on the seat and rode around with the wind in my face. What a moment!! I did it!! And no I didn't fall as much as I thought I would. Sometimes we just need to believe in ourselves. And know that every choice we make is the right one. It may not feel like it at the time but eventually you will look back at this moment and say...I made a choice. I took that leap of faith and I am not afraid of falling. 

Praise even the smallest victories

What is success? Some people might define it as doing something grand, like receiving an award, passing the bar or even working for a Fortune 500 company. Of course all of those successes are quiet amazing and something one should be proud of but what about the little successes? Shouldn't we praise those just as much? 

Think of it this way...if we don't take a moment and recognize that smaller victories are just as important then we may never find full satisfaction in our success as an individual. Everything has a process. Even our journey in life. Where were you a year ago? Six months ago? For me it's been my health and fitness. I have come such a long way but I know it will be a life long journey for me. 

I think in order for us to continue in our daily success it's important to have goals. Make small goals...for instance, tell yourself tomorrow you will turn all negatives into a positive. Or maybe something smaller like not drinking soda. Imagine what kind of person you will become by creating small goals everyday or every week. And remember to always praise even the smallest victories. Because the small victories will lead us to our greatest successes. 

I am original...

Do you have a fear of success? Some days I wake up feeling ready to conquer the world. Other days I feel sluggish and want to hide from my dreams and hopes of who I know I can be. Am I the only one who fears of being successful?

Its a constant battle in this world- fighting for what you love, fighting to be somebody. My biggest fear is being ordinary and unoriginal. I also feel like the only reason I'm not where I want to be today is because of that underlining fear. Its a terrible flaw and something I struggle with on a daily basis. If it wasn't for my workouts some days I don't know how I would deal with it. How do other people deal with it? I know I'm not ordinary. I know I have a lot to offer this world, whether its in my career, my relationships, or other aspects of my life. I have so much loyalty to those who are loyal to me. I am strong willed and born a fighter. I won't give up on what I want to be. I know I can be something great and I will be something great. I just need to find it deep within me to let go of that fear. To whisk it away and say NO! I will not give up. I will not let it overtake me. I am born to do something great in this world and nothing will get in the way of that.

Motivating yourself isn't easy- I have to dig deep some days when I'm not feeling up to par. Without my creativity, without my workouts, letting go of that fear would be impossible. Sometimes you have to say goodbye to negativity and welcome the positive side of life (even when you aren't feeling it) to overcome that fear. And keep telling yourself....I am GREAT. I am STRONG. I am ORIGINAL.